Where do you begin… that is the situation you face when you try to put into words the feelings you experience during the birth of your firstborn. I chose a “Little Bear” because of the ferocious love that is now over flowing from my heart. I am now officially a “Mama Bear”. I will never ever forget what it was like to see your face and to feel your sweet skin for the first time. It was an experience that is so perfectly stated at John 16:21 “When a woman is giving birth, she has grief because her hour has come, but when she has given birth to the child, she remembers the tribulation no more because of the joy that a man has been born into the world.”
C’bear, you have forever changed my heart. You have made us a little family of three. You have allowed me to see my first love, your Daddy, in a whole new role. He is so tender and loving toward you and is so determined to be such a good example. He longs to teach you how to become a fine young man. You have allowed me to feel love from friends and family in a whole new way, some of which took some of the pictures in this blog. I have felt their love and generosity in ways I would have never been privileged to experience if I didn’t have you. I have been able to see my parents and mother-in-law as grandparents to my son, my only one. Boy, do they love and adore you. You have allowed me to replace fears I had with an extreme confidence in our Creator, Jehovah God. I want you to know that with all my heart I long for you to know and love Him forever. It is the greatest gift I can give to you. I want you to know that what I have learned from studying about Him is the reason I remotely know how to be your Mama. Everyday I want to treat you just as you are – a sacred trust from Him. I want to make you feel loved and secure and to make Him proud of the kind of Mama I am to you. I cherish everyday with you. I love to watch you sleep, play and even cry because I know all too soon, these tender days will have passed. I look forward to forever with you.
Your Daddy and I love you more than you’ll ever know. Thank you for being our lil’ bear… c’bear… bear… our baby boy! Thank you for all the crazy little songs we now sing and for all the noisy toys… but mostly thank you for all the joy!!!